Friday, September 26, 2008 @5:18 AM
Introspection One of my good friends told me, my habit of thinking I have multiple personalities, "its probably your way of escaping reality". I dont know, I think I agree with the statement. It keeps me happy just about all the time, its like throwing the bars on every other person or thing that makes me sad. But I don't know why sometimes I'd suddenly smile or frown over nothing. I don't know. But aint it good? This way I won't keep grudges or feel sad over any other sad thing.
Phasing in and out of moods when I feel like it. Hiding behind my computer being the monkey that I am.
Irony, I hate sports, but then I prefer things done quickly, ending up I either run anywhere I need to or walk quickly.One day im going to learn how to skate like a pro, no need to walk or run im already much faster.
Playing with hair, they say it gives some sorta therapeutic effect. Quite true, it does make the process of spacing out easier.
Im super curious, the weirder or more mysterious a person is the more I like him or her. leave my besties outta this they're not weird
Give me a rainy day or cloudy windy day.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @6:04 AM
Character sheetName:Darren "Nefrodiv" Loh
Age :...
Height:...
Weight:...
Likes:Sleeping,Frowning,Scented candles,Making holes in objects,Unagi,Rose syrup,Plants,Green things,Visual Kei(oshare),Music,AKFG,Plasters,Clocks,Paper,Watches,Candies,Sand,Cats,Glass,Good unique artisan crafts,Parapara,Writing nonsense,Sea shells,Retarded looking dolls,Wood ornaments,Cooking,Bursting balloons,Marbles,Funny people,Nice people,Cute things(people?>_>),Running,Rainy weather,Water guns +more i dont know.
'Not'likes:People who dress like crap,People who make others sad,PE...wtf i hate PE,Bitter gourd,Empty fridges,Being tickled,Lousy noob anime,books,movies plots,etcetc..Meaningless songs,Being asked for a same reply again and again,Television(coz local progs suck,fine everything just about sucks except reality shows,discoverychn,natgeo,you know...>_>),Gastric,People without a sense of humour,Doris Lim(lol),Being used.
-ahh>_> slackerloh.
Sunday, September 14, 2008 @6:22 AM
Oh wells.I don't know what to say. So much for even fat hope. Gone like the wind. Seemingly a joyous occasion to me that you now have someone else thats better than me. I don't really know whether im truly happy or what, love is supposed to be giving not being selfish. I suppose its gameover for me, why would I even try for someone out of my league. The sting of naivety, tears flowed. With some introspection. Alright, I always thought I could make you happy, your smile meant that much, looking for methods I delved too deep.
I hope you're reading this. My exact feelings are thank you. For teaching me so much about life. To face reality. Although it was harsh, no pain no gain. I still love you, but those feelings would fade with time and resolution, please stay happy.
I cant be your friend, you haven't been nice since I knew you until now, I'll only interpret it as false hope, so...
One level less callow. Darren 'Nefrodiv' Loh.
Monday, September 8, 2008 @12:28 PM
FearI understand now.