Realising wishes.
So bored of this blog. I think ima pull it down and set up a new one in place. Criss-cross-identity doesnt apply to me anymore. Fine with what I am now.
So stomp on it and tear it down.
Yes. Its only how more days to last phase of secondary school life. By then everyone would drift apart. So depressing. Make an effort.
Btw look at these chucks. I want a pair man.
Kickass, literally.
Going back to school for nightclass.
Introspection
One of my good friends told me, my habit of thinking I have multiple personalities, "its probably your way of escaping reality". I dont know, I think I agree with the statement. It keeps me happy just about all the time, its like throwing the bars on every other person or thing that makes me sad. But I don't know why sometimes I'd suddenly smile or frown over nothing. I don't know. But aint it good? This way I won't keep grudges or feel sad over any other sad thing.
Phasing in and out of moods when I feel like it. Hiding behind my computer being the monkey that I am.
Irony, I hate sports, but then I prefer things done quickly, ending up I either run anywhere I need to or walk quickly.One day im going to learn how to skate like a pro, no need to walk or run im already much faster.
Playing with hair, they say it gives some sorta therapeutic effect. Quite true, it does make the process of spacing out easier.
Im super curious, the weirder or more mysterious a person is the more I like him or her. leave my besties outta this they're not weird
Give me a rainy day or cloudy windy day.
Character sheet
Name:Darren "Nefrodiv" Loh
Age :...
Height:...
Weight:...
Likes:Sleeping,Frowning,Scented candles,Making holes in objects,Unagi,Rose syrup,Plants,Green things,Visual Kei(oshare),Music,AKFG,Plasters,Clocks,Paper,Watches,Candies,Sand,Cats,Glass,Good unique artisan crafts,Parapara,Writing nonsense,Sea shells,Retarded looking dolls,Wood ornaments,Cooking,Bursting balloons,Marbles,Funny people,Nice people,Cute things(people?>_>),Running,Rainy weather,Water guns +more i dont know.
'Not'likes:People who dress like crap,People who make others sad,PE...wtf i hate PE,Bitter gourd,Empty fridges,Being tickled,Lousy noob anime,books,movies plots,etcetc..Meaningless songs,Being asked for a same reply again and again,Television(coz local progs suck,fine everything just about sucks except reality shows,discoverychn,natgeo,you know...>_>),Gastric,People without a sense of humour,Doris Lim(lol),Being used.
-ahh>_> slackerloh.
Oh wells.
I don't know what to say. So much for even fat hope. Gone like the wind. Seemingly a joyous occasion to me that you now have someone else thats better than me. I don't really know whether im truly happy or what, love is supposed to be giving not being selfish. I suppose its gameover for me, why would I even try for someone out of my league. The sting of naivety, tears flowed. With some introspection. Alright, I always thought I could make you happy, your smile meant that much, looking for methods I delved too deep.
I hope you're reading this. My exact feelings are thank you. For teaching me so much about life. To face reality. Although it was harsh, no pain no gain. I still love you, but those feelings would fade with time and resolution, please stay happy.
I cant be your friend, you haven't been nice since I knew you until now, I'll only interpret it as false hope, so...
One level less callow. Darren 'Nefrodiv' Loh.
Fear
I understand now.
aspirations
I know now. Ill tell the whole friggin world.
Tell me that im an emo,a crazy person,a weird person. I accept gladly.
Ill the the best emo crazy weirdest person in the world.
I told __(insert your name)__ ,
One day when i grow up, im going to be an accountant. "what can you do. cannot tak che" Thats why i give a damn now. When im an accountant, ill pick up many other skills. Ill learn how to cook,make coffee,play instruments and lastly design my own restaurant. A humble little small shop it might be,it'll still make you feel at home. Chat with old customers like friends for a thousand years. Feel the warmth of sharing a little love with everyone.
Its not all about money.
-stupid story by the loh-
UGLY
lol...was surfing for random things today...saw a closeup for houseflies, i think im scared of them now. coz their so friggin ugly.
*school* praise to singaporean girls the japs girls are ugly.*school*
*thoughts* make up your friggin mind you fool. its high time you fly far and high. discard your thoughts of whatsoever joy.
-rainy weather- yes i enjoy it. But... like the "LEKman" says: its been scientifically proven that sugar dissolves in rain.'
I fear for my kind sweet friends.
If you had a kind of superpower what would you want?
Its been said the human mind is the most cunning and destructive weapon. I want the power of creation. -doggy
I wish i was transported to a savannah for a picnic. Run freely and touch the sky, sit and enjoy a night of stars.
"Sia lurrh, got bluud"
If you had the power to do one thing without being blamed for you would...
I think i would hug someone. or maybe throw a mad fit and vent hate on everything and feel good after :D
Balcony
plants are blooming with a hella flowers.
catfish is smelly as ever.
Tibit(bunny) <---slacker. *relac one korner*
*random end*
Thank You.